Regret. Ugh. Not only a word but a terrible feeling. One that creeps up in the back of your mind from time to time. Or in my case, things I think about often. Questions I ask myself, like what I’d do differently knowing what I know now. But, would I go back and change things for the better if I could? Going back in time to change one small thing could result in changing much larger things, ultimately changing the person I am right here, right now. Would I want to risk altering the person I am in this moment? Would you?
I have two major regrets in my life. My first biggest regret is something I may reveal in the third and final novel to my series, The Pace of Nature. My second biggest regret has to do with me never be able to exercise in a form of running again. And boy, do I long to throw my running shoes on and sprint across the gravel through the windy streets of my townhouse complex. Running used to be my liberation. It meant so much more than not having to pay for a gym membership. It meant, being able to throw my sneakers on after a stressful, frustrating day, and jet right out my front door, knowing that twenty minutes later, I’d re-enter my house in a happier, more fun-spirited mood.
Continue reading ➞ Let me tell you a secret
term “starving artist” seems like it’s no longer applicable to an
artist’s way of life – at least not mine. Take Hemingway and the lost
generation for example. Back in those days, writers spent all their time
working on their latest masterpiece, sacrificing materialistic objects such as
tickets to plays, and/or dining out at restaurants, and instead lived on a
minimum expense, eating canned food and bread if it meant that they could
dedicate every waking minute to their art and craft.
I, along with other writers I know, have to juggle more than one job in order
to carve out little time to write each day. This particular year in general
happens to be a rather busy one for me. And it seems like every time I’m
finally able to sit down and get back to work on my projects, right as I’m deep
in thought with the words flowing, bells from my alarm start chiming and it’s
time to shower and get to my other job, my paying job.
force myself to stop writing is highly frustrating and I find myself feeling
discouraged and resentful that there’s never enough time in a day.
Continue reading ➞ Road to Nowhere? Sharp movements and a shaking fist!
all of you Game of Throne fans who’ve spent the last decade of your life infatuated
with the worlds of Westeros & Essos and the lives of the characters within it,
then like me, you may be in a bit of shock and denial that the show series has
come to an end.
had certainly been an emotional 6 weeks leading up to season finale. Now that
the show series has concluded, and I’ve had a couple of weeks to process the
different ways my favorite characters lives have ended, and I’ve had time to
process how the writers wrapped-up the storyline in general, I can genuinely
say that I am content with how some things ended, but I am also feeling a bit
let down by some of the quick plot turns, along with the overall pacing when it
comes to certain character arcs.
of Thrones had always felt like a carefully plotted, detailed packed story – a
story that had once felt so thought-out. I had always assumed the writers of
the show would follow through and complete each storyline to its entirely. Sadly,
for me, it did not feel that way.
Continue reading ➞ Let’s talk Game of Thrones: HBO Series Wrap up
I hear you. The words are blurred, sentences broken, but I’m still able to put the tattered sounds together.
At lunch you read me my favorite novel. I know by the names of the characters: Barkley, Henry. I feel the warmth of your hand on mine when you get to the part where the two escape on a boat to Switzerland in the middle of the night. I can tell by the swift change in your voice, and tight clench of your hand, that the part where they almost get caught is near. Gently, you brush your fingers against my arm when they make it to safety, able to start their lives together. But you end it there. I hear the clap of the book fold. You never read all the way to the end.
You grab my hands between yours and tell me that when I wake up, you and I will start our lives together. You say we’ll have our own adventures.
I respond, telling you we’ll be going home soon. Not to worry, everything will be like it once was. You never hear me. No matter how loud I scream – you never hear me. I feel your tears roll onto my face, down my cheeks, and into my mouth. I taste the salt from your body, and wonder if I’ll ever taste anything more of you ever again.
At night you sing to me. You rest your head beside mine singing the lyrics of Bobby McGee softly into my ear, telling me ‘you’d trade all of your tomorrows for one single yesterday’. We sing the chorus together, like we always do. You kiss my forehead; brushing your fingers through my hair, putting me to sleep, like you’ve done every night since we’ve been together.
Continue reading ➞ Coma
Sophomore year in high
school there was this teacher, Mr. Martello who taught American literature. He
had this energy about him when reading Emily Dickenson or something jarring
from Edgar Allen Poe; his eyes would brighten and he’d sway his hands as if
conducting an orchestra. He taught me about Emerson’s lead in the transcendentalist
movement and Thoreau’s adventures living at Walden Pond. He once handed out a
picture of 35-year-old Walt Whitman standing in a field of grass wearing a
black-top hat with a hand on his hip. He then spent the entire hour sharing
stories about the war and how Whitman sought out hospitals in D.C to help the
wounded. And how Whitman was one of the firsts to change the style of poetry,
breaking away from traditional formats; no rhyme or meter. Like a man soaring
through the sky and flying as if he were a gust of wind, Whitman wrote freely!
I was fascinated with
Mr. Martello. Not in a romantic kind of way, but in a way in which I wanted to
learn as much as I possibly could from him. Pick his brain and all that.
Continue reading ➞ Above the Mark: Part I
Today in class Mr.
Martello told us all about Margaret Fuller. How she was born in Massachusetts
in 1810 to a lawyer/politician father, who’d been disappointed she had not been
born a boy. Yet instead of sending Margaret into the kitchen to cook with her
mother, or out in the yard to beat-out the rugs, wash clothes and clean glass
lanterns; Timothy raised his daughter in his den, homeschooling and educating her
with a laborious course study.
Margaret was reading and writing. At four, she knew arithmetic. Before she
reached five, she knew English and Latin grammar. Timothy brought his daughter
up to read all sorts of books from ancient history, political philosophy, travel,
biographies, novels, all the great European authors and playwrights, and so on.
He had told Margaret,
“To excel in all things should be your constant aim. Mediocrity is obscurity.”
Continue reading ➞ Above the Mark: Part II
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Wednesday June 17th 9:30am:
In the bathroom while brushing my teeth, a little black ant circles the soap
dispenser. How did it get in? I walk over to the window to the right above the
toilet. No draft or hole. No other ants. Back at the sink, I spit, rinse, flick
the light off and walk into the kitchen.
Saturday June 20th 6:00am:
I jump out of the shower and dry off. I dress for work, place the towel on the
hook, and then reach into the whicker caddy beside the sink for my deodorant. A
little black ant is crawling up the side of it. I let it crawl onto my finger,
and then gently place it down against the counter. The ant walks along my
finger over to his friends hanging around the faucet.
Continue reading ➞ Confessions of a Woman Gone Mad: Ants
Posted on December
7, 2015 by Britt
Monday September 28th
I stand at the front door and rub my eyes awake. My sister’s there, going on
and on about how she has to go to work. My niece is sick and can’t go to
school. She has no choice; Addie has to stay with me for the day. She hands me
a note, a pink lunch box, kisses Addie on the cheek and darts towards her
running car. “See you at four,” she hollers out the window and drives away.
– Make sure Addie takes a teaspoon of her medicine (see in lunch box) every
four hours. Don’t worry, she’s not contagious.
– She eats a lot (like every two hours) so I packed her lunch and plenty of
snacks. If she wants anything else, make sure it’s ORGANIC. She only eats
organic and her stomach will not be able to handle anything with hormones or
pesticides in it. ORGANIC FOOD ONLY.
– NO CANDY
– NO TV
I crumble the note in my hand and toss it into the garbage.
Continue reading ➞ Confessions of a Woman Gone Mad: Addie
how writers start out? Or, about the process of writing a novel? If it were so
easy wouldn’t everyone do it?
When I was
studying undergrad, a student of English Lit, I drove four in a half hours to Hemingway’s
archive at The JFK Library in Boston for research on my final project. The
paper was a comparison between his first drafted manuscripts of The Sun Also Rises, vs. his
final published version of the novel.
I spent nine
hours rummaging through Hemingway’s journals, manuscripts, any paper with any
mention of The Sun Also Rises.
What an experience!!
As a reader,
researcher and writer, I found it illuminating to see first hand Hemingway’s
passion, work, and efforts that went into writing his first great novel.
Here is what I discovered:
Continue reading ➞ CALLING ALL HEMINGWAY AFICIONADOS!!!